I.....It has been an impossible journey going through this godless misery the endless broken heart, Simple fact of the one who is never alive. The one whom never had been in the light to see what was meant for him to see. It was impossible for him to become what his Mothers dying wish for him to become what was most important to his Mother his Father, his Brother, and his Sister that had been dead for too long for the young boy to even remember.

II.....All that he does remember of his Sisters death was the cold, dark, and hallow look in her eyes when she was standing on the edge of the chair that she always used to read stories to him, and always used to comfort him when he was crying because he had a bad dream. The darkness of her heart to stand on the edge of that chair right in front of him with a rope around her neck. Her very last words where "I'm not leaving you.......I'm leaving the world I'll always be with you.......I love you little Brother"

III.....Although at that moment the chair couldn't withstand the weight of her any longer. The chair had broken apart leaving her hanging by the neck with a rope around it. The young boy wasn't able to bare the pain of seeing her hanging by a rope......He broken down in tears but those tears weren't of sadness.....they were of anger and hate, He cried and cried and cried the pain was coursing through his whole body it was so unbearable. He felt liking dropping dead right then and there........

IV.....He couldn't believe what he was seeing......he was hoping that it was all just another nightmare that he would eventually wake from but no matter what he done it wasn't a nightmare. The pain and suffering was much too great to bare. Every night after that one horrifying day there were only nightmares and no dreams he couldn't have dreams anymore but on the other hand the young boy wasn't even able to sleep because every time he closed his eyes he always saw his older Sister hanging. The regret of knowing that his Sister won't ever be with him at his side, The fact of seeing his Sister the most important person in the world to him......

V.....It was all hate of her......and the young boy knew at that very moment in time he would never be able to forgive her for what she had done to him but even though he was crying inside he tried not to show it to the world. He was always angered at the world because in a way it was all the doing of the world that his older sister is gone from him never being able to talk to him when he was a problem, never again able to comfort him at night when he has a bad dream that was what had killed him inside the very most........

VI.....Then later on he knew why she had committed suicide in front of him. It was all to show him that not everything within the world will come out the way you want it to be. Every time he went to the graveyard where his older Sister was buried there were flashbacks of when she committed suicide in the boys head. When the boy arrived to where the gravestone of his Sister he would always ask her "why did you leave me? why did you leave your Family, your Friends, Everyone who loved and cared about you? '' Anger would flood his mind thinking to himself "You know what Sister......I'm happy that you left your Family and Friends because it shows that you were weak it shows to me and your Family and Friends that you couldn't bare what the world had to give to you i can't believe you I hate you!!!!"

VII.....Although he said that hated his older Sister deep down inside of him he actually loved her he always knew that he could never hate her. There would never be a reason for him to hate her and day by day going on through his life without a sister but with a Father, a Mother and a Brother he always knew that his Sister was the only one who really understood him and he knew what the reason was for his Sister to die, But all in all.......the young boy remained to live in darkness



To be continued.........